“On our mat we are all students, and we are all teachers.”
I woke up this morning on the strange side of… something. I don’t have an reason or an excuse for the way I was feeling, but I was OFF. And although I slept very little, by 4am I was up and restless and annoyed all to be damned. So I got up to run.
During the run (told ya it clears my head), I remembered that there’s something I’m supposed to be doing. I have promised myself to invert… alone. Right now, I can only invert with the help of an aerial silk, or my lovely husband, at whom I screech every time he threatens to let my feet go. Inversion is good for me. Inversion is what I must do. Inversion is key.
So after a few miles, I trotted to the local gym studio to practice doing… something. I still wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do. I laid down a mat next to a support post, made a little triangle with my elbows and wrists and put my head down…
…and stayed there…
…for a long time.
Then I popped up one foot, and came back down. Then one foot and the other, and came back down. A girlfriend had already started coaching me on using my ‘hips’ to lift, and not to throw up my legs, so I tried that.
I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that my legs were getting a lot higher than I thought they were (I literally felt like I was only a couple of inches off the ground). Once I realized that, I got the courage to just go for it.
And I made it!
All the way up to the post, then a deep breath and one foot… then two feet in the air. I was so proud! I just knew that I looked like this:
But I really looked more like this:
But no matter… the point is that I made it! And I started to feel better. A LOT better. I can’t solve everything about everything in one fell swoop (this is often my preoccupation). I don’t know if it’s the reverse blood flow or the fact that I felt like I finally did something that I’ve been promising myself forever, but my perspective took a positive turn.
By the time I walked home with the sunrise at my back, I was right as rain. I’m definitely going to practice this until I get it right. I’m so glad I was able to do it this first time… and it’s the ‘practice’ that makes yoga what it is. So I’m going to do it and do it and do it…
Now I just have to work on looking more like a gazelle and less like a boulder. 😀